I am a background friend.
A background friend is someone who is nice. Caring You don't mind being their friend. They are good people, good friends. But they are the ones you wont see for awhile and not mind. You tend to talk over them. Ignore their ideas and usually, if they invite you somewhere, you don't go. They are just there in the background, filling up space. One you could move on from without batting an eye. They're never really missed once not around.
All my life I've been a background friend. I just haven't noticed until recently. How did I become one? I speculate its because I was shy and timid as a young girl. I hung out with girls that would tease me whenever I did speak up or act as my true self. Therefore, I melded into the background to avoid being hurt. And there I stayed.
Its ok to be a background friend. It feels safe. Easy. But what happens when you finally grow out of it? How do you escape it?
This blog is me screaming into the void. My way of being heard. My opinions. My true self. It'll be filled with randomness, some healing and hopefully Ill find my way out of the background.
